Episode 2 | Wilhelm Verwoerd || Reconciliation

​​In this episode I chat with Wilhelm Verwoerd, a leading researcher in the field of reconciliation, apology and more recently, “white work” in SA. He was a researcher in the Truth and Reconciliation Commission and has since dedicated his life to exploring and facilitating forgiveness, apology and reconciliation.

Wilhelm is also the grandson of Hendrik Verwoerd, who is widely regarded as the architect of apartheid. He experienced this very unique incarnation of being born into a family at the political, social and spiritual center of apartheid, and then he managed to transcend the limitations of his cultural conditioning to become a leader in the field of reconciliation. For me, he provides us with a hopeful example of what white people in SA can do to finally start healing our own trauma as well as all the trauma we’ve caused with our heritage of slavery, colonialism and most recently, apartheid.

Links to some of Wilhelm’s work:
Books
Research: Dismantling Whiteness
Research: Black Christ

Link to my work

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